Cry
There are some nights,
When I just wanna cry.
When the tears are rolling,
Deep in my mind.
And there are some nights,
They're in my heart,
And others still rarer,
Where they trail down my cheeks.
There are,
Many reasons,
So many why's,
That I hold so much pain bottled up inside.
Some none shall know,
Others fall free from my lips,
Others hide away, so deep,
That even I do not know them.
Yet all these tears I cry,
In all of their many forms,
Come from deep inside,
And all mark the existence of;
The ways that I have failed,
The choices made astray,
The life that I have lost,
The things that shouldn't be.
So my tears
To Artists Great and Small by fille-de-druide, literature
Literature
To Artists Great and Small
I do not know you,
I hope someday to.
Words try to desert me,
As I write for you,
But they are sounds,
That I capture within the place that holds my heart.
May your holiday season,
Hold much joy and wonder,
And your dreams find their ways home.
Shining castles,
Dancing lights,
All magic, all mystery,
That you hold inside, answer your calls,
Show you light.
I see similarities,
In perceptions of beauty,
And hope that they hold true,
And with these wishes I give to you,
This poem that is just for you:
***
Words at times are hard to find,
And joys may often stray,
But little in this world is,
More precious then finding
Love Deep, Love True by fille-de-druide, literature
Literature
Love Deep, Love True
For you my love are all I see
No matter how far from me you maybe.
I miss your eyes,
Your gentle smile.
I miss even when we only part for a small while.
Now we are parted, so far away,
And the world grays day by day.
I miss you more,
Then you likely know.
And all the while I go on so.
Just know there is a place in my heart only yours,
That no other will ever touch,
Ever see, and now so deep within me are you,
That living without you is sheerest agony.
For you are the one who knows me well,
Far better than I know me,
And in my heart of hearts you see,
Yours is the face staring back at me.
Your eyes are wild,
Your heart is fr
Dragon fly, across the sky
Where have you gone?
Once you'd stay here, your power clear,
Now we're alone.
Our hope has gone
Your magick lost
Now we're alone.
Phoenix flame, now snuffed away,
Like dragons lost, oh gods the cost
Of mystic powers that guard and heal
What wisdom have we lost?
Our hope has gone
Your powers lost
Now we're alone
Once, the Unicorn ran free
A pillar of love and innocence
Now forced to hide his Horn
Now dying as the world fades
Our hope has gone
Your powers lost
Now we're alone
The Elven ones, keepers of the forest glades
Now fade away, they hide their faces
A once proud race now fallen from grace
Most just wouldn't get it.
They wouldn't understand
If I were to tell them the whole.
How can you miss something
If before it was gone
You didn't even know that it was there?
I do
And deep inside there is a gaping hole.
When you lose a child,
Even one you didn't realize existed,
Even after so short a time,
I causes great pain.
Pain I very well know.
I feel it every day no
In every spare hour.
Even if there is something else
To occupy my brain.
So very few
Have I told They number only four.
I hold this pain against me,
Press it to my heart
As the only reminder
Of a life that is no more.
I miss my child
Though I never k
There was a time
You'd gone away.
I knew not why,
I trust you're back to stay.
I never understood the test you gave.
The wherefores and the whys.
What where you testing
Dear my Lord?
Will I ever know?
I fel your love
Flowing back through me,
And pray it will never agian be taken away.
To be without you was such pain
To feel so all alone.
You never stoped loving me
So why take the feeling away?
I was deserted for a time
To test something deep insdie
A test that I wish to know
The wherefores and the whys of.
Cry
There are some nights,
When I just wanna cry.
When the tears are rolling,
Deep in my mind.
And there are some nights,
They're in my heart,
And others still rarer,
Where they trail down my cheeks.
There are,
Many reasons,
So many why's,
That I hold so much pain bottled up inside.
Some none shall know,
Others fall free from my lips,
Others hide away, so deep,
That even I do not know them.
Yet all these tears I cry,
In all of their many forms,
Come from deep inside,
And all mark the existence of;
The ways that I have failed,
The choices made astray,
The life that I have lost,
The things that shouldn't be.
So my tears
To Artists Great and Small by fille-de-druide, literature
Literature
To Artists Great and Small
I do not know you,
I hope someday to.
Words try to desert me,
As I write for you,
But they are sounds,
That I capture within the place that holds my heart.
May your holiday season,
Hold much joy and wonder,
And your dreams find their ways home.
Shining castles,
Dancing lights,
All magic, all mystery,
That you hold inside, answer your calls,
Show you light.
I see similarities,
In perceptions of beauty,
And hope that they hold true,
And with these wishes I give to you,
This poem that is just for you:
***
Words at times are hard to find,
And joys may often stray,
But little in this world is,
More precious then finding
Love Deep, Love True by fille-de-druide, literature
Literature
Love Deep, Love True
For you my love are all I see
No matter how far from me you maybe.
I miss your eyes,
Your gentle smile.
I miss even when we only part for a small while.
Now we are parted, so far away,
And the world grays day by day.
I miss you more,
Then you likely know.
And all the while I go on so.
Just know there is a place in my heart only yours,
That no other will ever touch,
Ever see, and now so deep within me are you,
That living without you is sheerest agony.
For you are the one who knows me well,
Far better than I know me,
And in my heart of hearts you see,
Yours is the face staring back at me.
Your eyes are wild,
Your heart is fr
Dragon fly, across the sky
Where have you gone?
Once you'd stay here, your power clear,
Now we're alone.
Our hope has gone
Your magick lost
Now we're alone.
Phoenix flame, now snuffed away,
Like dragons lost, oh gods the cost
Of mystic powers that guard and heal
What wisdom have we lost?
Our hope has gone
Your powers lost
Now we're alone
Once, the Unicorn ran free
A pillar of love and innocence
Now forced to hide his Horn
Now dying as the world fades
Our hope has gone
Your powers lost
Now we're alone
The Elven ones, keepers of the forest glades
Now fade away, they hide their faces
A once proud race now fallen from grace
It has been done,
The time is past.
No more the worry of the moment,
Relief begins to set in.
Yet, deep in my soul,
I still feel pain.
Love is not easily forgotten.
Forgotten it will not be,
But for now,
Put on hold.
Maybe again,
In the future someday,
When he is grown we'll be togethor anew.
Into the future can not be seen,
But bring it on, all the toils and pain,
Because life is a long bumpy ride.
Without the hills and mountains
To be there before us,
All would be flat and drear.
The hills make for trouble,
THe mountains hard times,
But it is these things
that make life divine.
For if there wa only
Plains to see,
Violence guns darkness,
Why do we choose these things?
Why do we chose ignorance to knowledge?
The darkness of hate to the brightness of love.
What's there to see
In this forest of the night?
The darkness is not so unusaul s to cause a stare.
The violence who notices anyomore?
There's an innocent killed everyday.
Innocent live taken more and more
Many who have not even joined the fray.
Children killed to wet evil appetities
How this world disgusts me.
Midnight is here,
the clock ticks past.
I sit here, alone,
wondering.
I hear every word,
I see every movement,
I feel every breath.
I feel like this moment will last
forever.
But it can't.
It, like the clock's ticking,
fades, too.
I hear the music,
like a soundtrack
to all of my bad decisions.
I see every wince,
every fake smile.
I wonder...
To whose benefit is that?
I sit here, alone,
and watch the world go on.
I feel your breath on my face.
I know it's not there,
but I long for it.
I long to be back in that,
that bad decision.
I know the right words to say,
the right way to act
to make people believe me
when I l
Dragon fly, across the sky
Where have you gone?
Once you'd stay here, your power clear,
Now we're alone.
Our hope has gone
Your magick lost
Now we're alone.
Phoenix flame, now snuffed away,
Like dragons lost, oh gods the cost
Of mystic powers that guard and heal
What wisdom have we lost?
Our hope has gone
Your powers lost
Now we're alone
Once, the Unicorn ran free
A pillar of love and innocence
Now forced to hide his Horn
Now dying as the world fades
Our hope has gone
Your powers lost
Now we're alone
The Elven ones, keepers of the forest glades
Now fade away, they hide their faces
A once proud race now fallen from grace
Current Residence: Eureka, Ca Favourite genre of music: do I have to chose just one? O.O Skin of choice: Mine? ... no really I know what they are talking about here. Favourite cartoon character: Stich... yes... the evil sweet little monster thing from outer space Personal Quote: What you don't know can't hurt me. ;)
Favourite Movies
Newsies, hands down
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
... ??? ... ummm... :scratches head:
Favourite Games
umm... ... are you sure you want to know :hears someone speak: Oh that kind of game!
Tools of the Trade
do you really want to know? *fake innocent look
Other Interests
Theatre reading writing spending time with my friends
I shall start off by saying that things have been happening much to fast in my life lately, and it all seems to come on at once. If some of this stuff, and if you're supposed to know about it you do, had come on a little more spaced out I doubt I would have been as screwed up as I have been for the last week or two, but I'm finally starting to feel better. To all involved in the process of getting me there, I thank you. You know who you are.
Final Goodbye:
Many things in life,
We will not understand.
May things in death,
Make longing oh so strong.
Yet there are things between.
In these things we find ourselves,
In these trials we face
I'm not saying I want to be dead mind you, just that I hurt and I don't want to be alive right now. The worst part is I don't think I'll ever know why. Why any of this happened, why anything. It's gonna drive me crazy, but obviously I screwed something up somewhere. Obviously I messed up big time. I'm just so confused, and so sad, and just very VERY glad my daughter isn't awake yet.
At what point is do you draw the line on someone saying they will do something? How long do you give them to do it before you take matters into your own hands even though you've given your word that you would let them do it? Now of course take into account that it is something that you are involved with, and it is effecting you that it hasn't been done. No one's life is in danger, but it's causing you turmoil inside. How long?
With the sweetness that is random sweetness like you, how could I not? Plus I liked what I saw when I dropped in. I was having a pretty craptastic day, but I must say thank you, cause you made it for me.